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holdn it dahn in say tahn [Feb. 8th, 2006|01:09 am]
suleh jaames
[mood |lazyahh]
[music |BEFORE YOU ACCUSE ME... - above the sky]

despite all the legal, and social negatives that have been around lately.


I have gotten two things that make my life better.


the new blade phone, and a 30g black video iPOD.

whats weird is, when looking at the two, together,


its like ones the little brother of the other, or they match or something.

it's neat.

I didnt even do it on purpose.

but it's tyte.

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yay.

I like the new at all cost, the screamer's screaming is dank, and speaking of screaming I'm going to see ed gein, the numb12, and through the eyes of the dead on friday, I cant fucking wait.

and speaking of screaming again, my band records on monday.

whoever listens to it will like it, if you're open minded.

it's different than anything I've ever done before.

a couple of short noise songs, and then 4 or 5 full on decent lengthed songs.

every song has a distinct feel to it.

we're inspired by basically 3 bands.

numb12, btbam, and through the eys of the dead.

we have shows on march 18 at snaps and may 6th at some movie theatre.

I might not update my eljay for a week or so, I have a lot of things I need to take care of, responsibility wise.

other than that, life has been getting better, I miss some people's presence, but then realize what they did so I dont miss them.

its a paradox.

life is paradox right now.

this is the turning point in my life where I decide, do I so something rowdy (illegal), or do I do something normal (legal)...

I have proof of crimes commited against me lately. there will be justice.

I must gather myself and only be around those I completely trust.

goodbye and goodnight.
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(no subject) [Feb. 3rd, 2006|12:43 am]
suleh jaames
my house has video surveillence now.


watch out.
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(no subject) [Feb. 1st, 2006|03:23 pm]
suleh jaames
[music |before you acuse me - above the sky]

life is goood.

2 people I once considered my 2 best friends are no longer.

I feel shitty.


but hey.


life goes on.


My new band records next next week at rhapsody.


I take a tour of the place today courtesty of b williams uptop.

It should be fun.

I know people will like it.

It's not like anything I've done before.

It's just non stop.

we've got our shit down.

we have a lot of songs, and we're gonna start booking pretty soon.

we're gonna fancy up the demo.

cover art logos the whole nine.

if anyone wants to help out.

it'd be welcome.

and we'll give you props and it free, when we release the demo to the world. we're serious about this.

I also am going to record bass for the sessions.

our old bassist is permanently out.

i have 3 good bassists in mind that I would want to do it because they are quite talented.
l.t., ccc, and a.h.

but I dunno, i just might do it.

we're serious about this.



school sucks.

I need a job still.

same shit dif day. gay
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$30,000 total in my recent years, that couldve been where it was, but is not because of my faults... [Jan. 27th, 2006|12:18 am]
suleh jaames
and 30,000 feelings misguided or no longer felt in recent weeks because not only my mistakes bu others as well.

f what ya heard mayne.

see me in persann.


so much has happened thats just lame and terrible lately, that I dont want to do anything, except for what would make my life better and easier.

I've made soo many mistakes, and so many friends tell of them and that I'm better than that, and yea, you're right.

I've hurt my family, my friends, and havent set a good example for my little brother, whom I care about more than it really seems, and I need to get better.

I've influenced a lot of people negatively and positively depending on how you define good or bad, but basically, I've affected a lot of people, and I thank that, yet regret it at the same time, I dont know.

but as for the people who have taken from me.

you are not good at life. you need to get better, and stop hurting people who do not deserve to be hurt.

that is just mean, i'm trying to sound nice here to the ones that havnt done something nice to me.

disapointments.

but yea.

everyone needs to get better.

everyone.
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(no subject) [Jan. 26th, 2006|04:05 pm]
suleh jaames
oh sigh.
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(no subject) [Jan. 24th, 2006|05:33 pm]
suleh jaames
[mood |crappycrappy]
[music |before you acuse me]

I've been awake since 6 a.m and I've only moved positions twice, to throw up, and to pee.

I didn't go to school today.

I havent done anything.

I feel like shit.

my stomach feels terrible.

my feet are cold.

my eyes hurt.

my neck hurts.

my body hurts.

I need to change something.

I kind of know what to change though.

so its a little bit of an eye opener.

although my eyes shouldve been open a long time ago, maybe.

I think now is a good time to start making better decisions.

I got my car back, I'm free, but now I'm paranoid of stealers, and assholes.

I was assaulted the other day, and there's nothing I can really do about it, legally.

legally.

I trust too many people.

I am gullable.

I let people step on me.

I hate it.

the only thing I'm looking forward to, is band practice, and nothing else.

some friends stopped calling, some still do, and I like that,

friends asking if I'm doing okay.

it makes me feel better.

and it makes me like you more.

during the writing of this entry I had received a call from a person I havent talked to in a couple of days.

I thought it would be a warm welcome and a hey whatsup, but no.

it was a negative claim, with of course bad sources, and little/no evidence, and a lot of blame, but what is really funny, is that I never quoted what people are saying was quoted.

haha.

I could give a shit though. what a bunch of bs...

an lj writer recently stated that a local problem, xanax, is growing out of hand, and boy is he right.

I think everyone needs to stop or slow down the bars. on the real.

it makes you forget, it makes you say things you'll regret, and it'll make your life confused.


I've been on my space wayy too much lately.

its a fuckin drug.

I dont work at cool cafe anymore.
it sucked ass.

blahhh.

...I hate being acused of saying something I did not say.
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(no subject) [Jan. 22nd, 2006|01:55 pm]
suleh jaames
recently i had received an expensive presitgious watch from a girl that liked me.

so i treated her to dinner, was nice, did the gentlemen thing.


then a friend of mine and steps in and hits on her.

now hes with her.


big deal i dont care, shes a skank whore and hes a litlle bitch.


but she wants the watch back.

but that sucks for her.

haha.


i went to jail again.

long story.
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lust, more important than a relationship and a friendship? [Jan. 21st, 2006|04:53 pm]
suleh jaames
[music |f what ya heard mayne.]

all I have to say is, what the fuck is juice.

I'm pissed about two things.

a. my wallet being jacked, and the suspects who I think are involved.

b. a person who chose lust over a best friend.


in this world there is such a thing called respect.

there is also something in this world called control.

taking control of a situation the right way, and having respect is something that is important and required for having a decent life.

any one who takes from me, or talks down to me


is jelous


I don't remember last night.

all I know

is that some girls may look nice and innocent but really are scandalous whore bitches, truth. only some girls though.

and that an ex best friend didnt have enough respect for me, and chose a HOE (ass bitch) over a BRO (not anymore)

and everyone knows its fucked up.

this is a good couple... a skeez whore, and a dick playa.

for real right?

I didnt wanna fight over a skeez.

but I was thowed.

I have no beef with any one that I care about.

but I lost some people I cared about last night.

ghey.

blahh.

I'm so tired.

and the only thing I want to do is jam with my band right now to vent.

I dont deserve the negative things that happen to me.

t.w. you suck at life.
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(no subject) [Jan. 17th, 2006|05:09 am]
suleh jaames
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leanin. [Jan. 14th, 2006|03:02 pm]
suleh jaames
[music |saves the day - at your fruneral]

It's a beautiful day outside.

I like it a lot.
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